Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Love yourself

I do think that some females really just don't love themselves enough.

Okay correction: I do think some humans, regardless their gender, just don't love themselves enough.

Some people fear loneliness
Hey I'm not saying loneliness is good, but it's not that bad either.
It is not a weakness, and it is not a form of darkness which one should just sings about
Loneliness is something we ourselves could control
Now cut the bullshit about how it creeps in and make you cry
Coz that is freaking exactly my point
If you cry when you feel lonely, that would be because you simply don't love yourself enough

Present days I believe that anyone would be capable to enjoy loneliness if they're strong enough
And that strength comes from not courage, but the love you have for yourself
If you love yourself, accept your flaws and your strengths.
Accept that you have weaknesses and accept you for what you truly are
It is not a crime that you're horny, provided that you stand by the accepted moral conduct of the society. In other words, you don't go around raping women.
It is not a crime, that you cry everytime you feel frustrated, or sad, or angry or any other emotions, as long as you tend to stand back up again, feeling better and fresh and able to keep going. Tears, in these situation my dear, are a sign of strength.

If you love yourself enough, smile and say "I know" when someone rubs one of your flaws right into your face. Acceptance my dear, is a great thing. No human is ever perfect. It is our flaws which make each and every one of us unique and human. Is it also those who call themselves friends(including you yourself) who are responsible to accept the flaws of others. Accept the flaws you have and those which your friends around you have, find strength in this acceptance, then if you want to and if you can, change yourself for the better. If you accept your friends' flaws, but still got bullied psychologically by those whom you call friends, then the fault is not with you. Do not blame it entirely on yourself. You, who understand the flaws you have and had tried to do something about it, are far off better than the ignorant and the arrogant.

If you love yourself enough, accept the compliments people give you. Modesty is a beautiful thing, but don't overdo it, it gives the adverse effect. If you don't feel like you lived up to the compliment, then try your best to do live up to it. Not whine about it somewhere else. It would seem like you're showing off, just to let you know. You wouldn't know, sometimes, that you actually do earn the crown.

If you love yourself enough, do everything you could to live as happily as you could, even in the most dire of predicaments. I'm not saying it's gonna be easy, I'm just saying that you should try to avoid regrets in the later days.

Love yourself, before you love others; Take good care of yourself, so you'll get the qualification of taking care of others. If you don't love yourself enough, I'm telling you, you'll find it hard to live contentedly. For one, you'll never be at peace with yourself.

And I am aware that some people would ask:" What happens when some greedy dude lives off hard-work pennies of the people ,under the great name of self-love?"
Well let me tell you this, whatever misdeeds you do, it'll eventually catch up with you. If you think you can run away from your sins, however small, even if it is not regarded as a sin by the common society, you're sorely wrong. Karma sees to that. So would one who truly loves oneself do misdeeds? Not when one doesn't have to, I can tell you that.

Love yourself people. It's not easy to come to love oneself sometimes. I can understand that. Coz I myself been through great struggles to understand this.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

改变

老实说,很多东西我都未能捉牢
常常以为拥有了,可手一放开,却才发现原来什么都不曾留过

之前总认为中四中五,是我思维成长得最为快速的两年
不过现在呢,倒认为,似乎是上了College后,思维最多变动的一年
首先是看清自己,无论是缺点仰或弱点
然后是检讨,反省
最后是改变

“人是时时刻刻都在改变着;早上的你,下午的你,傍晚的你,晚上的你,都是不同的”

这一年,我忘了曾和自己许下的承诺
这一年,让我差点儿变回以前的静怡
这一年,过得实在让我感到万分丢脸

今年实在是最乱的一年
失去不知原来是放在心底的人
又差点儿被以为征服了的恶魔禽住
又差点儿让自己的执著害惨

不会了,我现在很明白了
佛门的学问实在比想象中的更有道理,洞悉人性

生死有命,我定无能为力
缘分早定,我亦无能为力

我不愿一而再,再而三地为难欺负自己了
我答应过自己,潇洒地活下去来着
而且,若说人生不过是过眼浮云,什么都带不走
那至少,我要带走我干净的心灵

别后悔所遇过的人,别怨所遇过的人
珍惜所拥有过的时间
就算最后结局如何,那曾经所有的回忆,以及所收得的温暖温柔
不管如何,定不会忘
忆起时,仍会莞尔地淡淡一笑
我非无情之人

我只不过学会放手,再怎么辛苦都要活得毫无遗憾
无论身边会否有人陪着,也要坚强地走下去,以智慧为盾
希望最后,我会是个每过一天,都能战胜昨天的自己之人



It's something I read from the comic which really did hit a mark

"By seeing how you are reflected in another's eyes,
you are able to discover your worth,
that in turn ties into how you establish your view of yourself.
A world where you only exist,
you never exist at all."

It honestly hit a nerve of mine
I wasn't able to see my reflection in another's eyes for quite some time
Which is why I always long to go home instead of being anywhere else
I at least get to see something in my parents' eyes

Being at the college, makes me feel lonely

Friday, October 14, 2011

长女

我是长女
不管是爸爸或妈妈的那一方
都是最年长的
因为我爸妈都是长子长女

这其实是我心底的一道伤

就因为我是长女
要背负的永远都更多更重
我家二老膝下有一女二子
而这两位二子却是....靠不住,让他们担碎了心

有时真觉得疲惫,觉得肩膀好似快被重担压垮,快喘不过气
事事都得做得完美,容不得半点瑕疵
我没办法似其它同年女孩般活得那么舒心
看起来虽风光,可我心里的苦何人看见?
我心里究竟有多么的不安谁能得知?
而我父母也永远说不出我最想听的那句话
我的不安就那般时时地存在着

我其实很想说:
“我没你们认为的那等能耐,
没你们所想的那般出色有才华
并不很坚强,也会觉得委屈,
很想有人体谅,不是只有我体谅别人的时候而已
我其实是很想哭,但哭不出来而已”

“我也常常为未来担碎了心”

Monday, March 14, 2011

Past mistakes

Funny how I could say a thousand wise things
And yet forget my much treasured principles and rules in life.

Infuriating how it is that no matter how many disappointments I've been through
I still wanna hope,expect and believe enough in homo sapiens to get past mistakes done again.

Why?
Why is it I still wanna seek for what it had always fed me discouragement and depression?

Why is it I'll still do it even when I know and knew so clearly in my heart,
what kind of person everyone I know are?

Amusingly, that's because I'm a human myself.





Sunday, February 13, 2011

第一次失去 心爱的人

您怎么那么忍心离去呢

泪水几乎流了一整夜
我,几乎从有记忆以来,就有了您
都在身边,都在那儿

可笑的我,原来竟是不了解死亡的真正意义
那是永远再也见不了面,说了千万句话都得不了回应
只能靠着记忆与照片的惦记与牵挂

亲目见您躺在棺材里,很可怕
仿佛心口被人拿了锤子狠狠打了下去
意识到了我今生今世已失去您了
意识到了我其实是很爱很爱您的

我希望,我们两家的缘分不会终此于今世

若有下一世,我还是想要当您的侄女

Saturday, January 8, 2011

QUIT WHINING

Quit whining!

There are things which happened due to your very own makings
Which you unintentionally brought upon yourself
In ways you just can't apprehend.

It's okay
That you have strong aversion
To the cobwebs you trapped yourself in

It's okay
To have negative feelings
To have such virulence
Towards whatever it is you find so offensive

But that's only for the begining

After you think you finally had enough time
Mopping around
Feeling sorry for yourself

After you figured you seriously had enough of those shit
That you wanna climb out of the box
You're so sick being in

DO SOMETHING

TAKE ACTION

MAKE A CHANGE

Dude ( or gal ), quit juz howling to the moon
Singing how pitifully negative you are
Complaining about this and that
(you wouldnt even know that you're complaining,which is even worse)

People like you are AGGRAVATING
Your incessantly cries
Are downright offensive to my ears
(And I can't pretend not to know coz you happen to be one of my friends)

And I really can't be bothered
Coz you and I won't be meeting anymore

Just to tell you:
Keep on whining and do nothing
You'll gain as much as the corpse in the grave yard
Shut your yap and take actions
You might gain infinitely more than what you expected

You think you're lethargic with what you're dealing right now?
Find the INITIATIVE to change the goddamn situation!

You do nothing, you gain nothing
How old are you that you can't even understand such simple rules of life?
No matter how capable you think you are
May you stay this way
I care naught if everyone I know says you're a hundred years old

To me, you're just a brat.