表里不一

茫茫人海中,只有我立在一旁

背影孤独落寞,面无表情的俏脸

竟有些悲哀的味儿.

某人说过,

"呀!你怎么瞧起来这么悲伤?"

回过神来的我,莞尔.

我答道,

"没有,我可是在发呆呢."

他的回答便是,

"悲伤的发呆,可真是前所未有."

(我是真的无聊得在发呆)

我觉得,这就是我吧.

表里不一,总是让人误解.

不笑的时候,

如同天边月,属于夜晚的一方

可若是笑了,

便是白天美丽的蓝天

灿烂得犹如太阳

一萧一剑走江湖,情仇爱恨酒一壶

上天下海江永流,如风如幻梦仍留

孤鹰自飞天涯中,江湖如海血如鸿

是非成败转头空,春夏秋冬无一终

苍鹰

风凛血刀剑影中,身影翩翩若惊鸿

仰首酒饮雪山上,对月舞剑笑长歌

浪迹江湖影无踪,高堂枕剑眠无忧

杀人闹市不掩名,惟恐江湖是非尽

英雄难驳血染目,苦泪铁心且能送

悠悠天地风相随,君郎步道微笑中

The friend I am

This is what I would do for my friend:

When you smile
I hope it's coz you feel like smiling
When you cry
Heck, nomatter if you're male or female
I wouldn't comfort you first-handedly
I would juz be a quiet shadow,watching you
And that's coz, judging a human's pride
Noone wanna let others see them cry
When you're angry
Hell, I freaking damn hope it's not my cause
Bytheway, when you're the fire
I would try to be the cooling water

I would be there for you
To listen when you called
(that's what phones are for btw)
I would want to be the one
That you know you have at your back
And that you would know that
Whatever happens
I would never be the one to betray you
I would also try my best to protect you

BUt do know that
When I think you're making a mistake
I would try my best to pull you back
When I think you're drowning
I would try to be your float

There's one more thing that I think you should be informed
That is, when I decided that you're no longer a friend
I would walk out that door
And leave without a trace

Childhood

Roads would all lead back to one's childhood
If you ask of how one's personality develop
Into the present state of what you see.

Mine is likewise.

My childhood had never been a bright one
Although it's not rain and storm
But it's a dull, isolated world I've lived in.

When I was young
My world only revolves around books and study
I've a very strict mother
Who place much importance in academic excellency.
I wouldn't complain about it, considering how well I'm doing right now.

However.
I've always been a social outcast.
I was way outdated about what is cool, and what is not.
I wasn't any good in interacting with people
And I wasn't exactly the cute and adorable kid.

I could always describe of how painful it feels
When you watch others play merrily
And you could only sit back and watch
What I did was pick up a book
Start reading like the whole damned world out there
Is nothing but shit for me

That was how the first stage of my behaviour developed
I turned into a quiet, introvert girl
Loneliness was nothing to me then.
Walking down the path solitarily
Is not so bad after all.

But people think differently.
How they turned quietness into cockiness
Will always be a mystery to me
When they said they think I was cold
Mayhaps they were right
But mostly, I'm cold coz I dunno what to say

It was like looking out of a window
Where things were colourful and full of life
Such a contrast to the world you live in
Where things were only white and black

哭泣,能是茫然的么
宛如伸出一双求助的双手
等待着另一个人的怜惜

坚强,会是一种痛苦么
那么瘦弱的背影
为了守护自己的一切
而笔直地站稳了双足

笑容,何不是苦涩的见证
被泪水洗亮的双眸
犹如安静的悲吟般
怔然地望向前

因为一个人走得艰辛
因为一个人走得孤单
所以想要依赖的对象
所以想要有人伴着

不想倒下
即使流过鲜血流过苦泪
也想继续往前走

且希望寒冷的雨夜中
有人伴在身侧依靠着
只是在累得撑不下去了
也知道自己不是一个人
仰望着凄美的月亮时
有人紧握着自己的手
破碎的心,更待那个人
前来把碎片一个个拾起

我只想要个真心爱我的人陪着我
一生一世,不离不弃

Behind the Mask

Ever wonder,
what is the truth
under the beautiful mask
I hold tightly to my face

Ever think,
that one day
you might discover the mendacious female
you've been happily holding hands with
for such a long time

I might be an unworthly human
With an icy,stone-cold heart
Or I might be someone
Whose calculative thoughts hidden behind
A kind, harmless smile

I would be as enigmatic as the night
Where nothing is predictacble
Or I would be as angelic
As how a devil in disguise would be
And sly enough to fool everyone including me

If you're afraid
Do not attempt to remove my mask
If you're daring
Ask for my hand
To dance a waltz together
By the end of a waltz's time
What is it, that you will find?

柳千夜

柳千夜

我总爱幻想些古代故事;
想像自己是个路见不平,拔刀相助的女侠.
总爱想着放眼尽是绿色一片的竹林
施展着轻功,宛如把全世界都踩在脚底下般地飞跃于树林间.

某天啊,我心血来潮,想写个古代小说
主角呢,是个女扮男装的女侠
我喜爱柳字,更偏爱夜这一字
所以,柳千夜就这样形成了

我的柳千夜,是个笑看江湖,潇洒如风,如深夜一般美的女人
后来,我却对一个古代网络游戏上瘾了
一时想不出什么名好用,灵光一闪,就用了"柳千夜"

这么一来,我便是柳千夜了.

本姑娘呢,和原始的柳千夜很多相同的方面
这是理所当然的,因为当初写着那小说时,也是把自己溶入了故事中
同样是如风如夜的女子,调皮聪慧,重情重仪却又难掩寂寞孤独的才女(臭屁一下下)

我十分喜爱这另名,也把这当成另一个自己,割舍不得
认真道来,我是个懒散得和懒猫有得一比的家伙.
可被激怒时,呵呵,这我就不多说了.
自认不笨,但也不会很聪明的小女人.
有些迷迷糊糊,总爱装傻,忍耐功力超强;
面具一层层,个性千秋万变,很难搞懂的臭懒猫.

哎呀,停笔.

认知

偶尔看着好友们打闹,我会有些恍惚
这类友谊中所能带来的温暖
多少年了,我都忘了那温馨的滋味

有的好友,幽默风趣得....很不可思议 (汗颜= =)
也有的随和,文静
例外还有可爱聪明的几位
最后是类似于保母...咳!大姐风格的好友
呵呵,日子过得辛苦且愉快

大部分的时间,都会被逗得笑歪了嘴
随和文静的朋友,相处得且自在又舒服
可爱聪明的那几位...(脸黑)被欺负得有些哭笑不得
嗯,保...(咳,说错了),像大姐的那位么...我欺负得很开心

这两年,我想了许多
猛然从梦里惊醒般,瞬间清醒起来
感觉很不踏实,茫然了好一阵子
犹如长眠一醒,手里忽然有了许多珍贵的礼物
我的手,就从此十分沉重

看清了过去的傻气与执着
终于明了,自己长久以来潜意识里
不断寻找的东西
原来是你们所能带来的温馨
这个认知,让我从前的一切
迅速地变得如此残破不堪

为何不能早些清醒?
因为我正努力改变自己那被掩饰的一面
若说,泪水可以是甜的
那么,当时的我,一定是笑着哭泣
因为我为了你们,放弃了守了许久的另一位
她会恨我狠心罢,我实在觉得好笑

感觉上,我正站在悬崖边缘
展开双臂,轻闭上了眸眼,就如此飘然跌了下去
放弃若是对的,那么,深谷的尽头,会有一潭湖水接了我
可若放弃是错误的,那么,我会落个什么结局?
粉身碎骨么?从此一蹶不振?

不可能,我是大名鼎鼎的柳千夜.
神不救人,人自救

不过,我坚信我的眼光
我孤独的身边,会有人伴着我
温柔一笑,我的选择,绝不会出差错.

I would wonder what kind of person I am
To be someone so complicated
That one could even lose oneself in it
I am half sane and half crazed

But, I think,
THat place I call heaven,
Would be full with beautiful white trees
Where snow would float lightly to my eyes
The icy blue stream, running through my fingers
Where enchanted songs surround me and hold me tight
And I would close my eyes, and let my soul fly free

SOmewhere which global problems won't trouble me
Somewhere which my unpredictable future wouldn't terrifies me
Somewhere which the face under my mask wouldn't haunts me
Somewhere which the present could never reach me

I'm an angel, with broken wings
And also a devil, with blinded eyes
I want to be the night
where everything would just melt into the darkness so ethereal beyond
I want to be the moon
So the one shining, reaching out one's slender hand, would be me

Sometimes, the only thing I need
Is just someone whom I love
To embrace me tightly
Whilst I salvage my hurting heart
To question nothing and just hold me together

I watch, as my heart get trampled
By people I loved and treasured
To stand by and witness
THe funeral of my very own kindess
To taste the bitterness silently in my own heart

But i think, i hope
Mayhaps somewhere in the future
Someone would be willing to stand at the end of the road
To hold my cold hands, warm my shivering heart
And walk with me through the days forever.

深情

若说你的背影，会是我的迷恋；
那么你的怀抱，却是我的眷恋．

永远走在前的你，会不记得我？
一抹淡笑，一个回眸，会不停下等待我？
我伸出的手，你可会记得握好？
闭上眼的同时，想的可是我？

我不求荣华富贵，只求与你恩爱到老
我不望时时缠你，且望你的挂念惦记
我不听你的甜言蜜语，却醉于你的百般呵护
我真爱你的温柔体贴，更深爱你的永世守护

喔，想起来了
你说过．＂不管未来如何，只要你陪在身边就好．＂
眼角含笑，却又隐带严肃．
你承诺过，＂今后我的背影我的怀抱，都会为你撑起天地．＂
我的感动，我的深情，皆都为了你
这一秒，笑一笑，投入你的怀里然后撒娇

对了，咱们那个夏天
温柔求婚的你，那一句我爱你
我仍牢记至今
年年月月，白发如雪
不离不弃，相扶相持
就算咱们都老了，你仍笑若春风
承诺着我下一世，定仍护我爱我

你的背影，是我的安全感来源
你的怀抱，永为我的天地一切
若说，人类始终只能以死离开
那么，咱们必要手牵着手离开
人生如此，夫复何求？