FED UP

I got tired of explaining myself
I am fed up with trying to make myself compatible to the others
And I am so f***ing tired with your arrogance

Do not try to define me in the way you want
Do not try to mould me to your style

Because in case you haven't noticed it
I am not someone you can control
Nor can you manipulate

Accept the fact that you and I are not the same
And that we think too differently
I am not naive and never am innocent
I am much matured and wiser than you are
And please, I do think you don't understand homo sapiens enough.
Ponder that, if you may.

I am ,however, forgiving enough
To overlook and forget whatever anger and frusfration
I have against you
That's the courtesy I'm giving you
For being my friend for all these while

I want to tell you something bytheway:
It is because we love and care about someone entirely too much
That we always fail to see the other person clearly
That we always want to believe that he or she is perfect
No defection, an absolute angel,an exquisite work of God

So when I can't list out your weakness and flaw
Then you can be sure of my affection towards you
But when I can analyse your personality thoroughly
I can assure you that my adoration of you has diminished drastically

I never asked anything of you
Nor demanded anything out of you
What I wished for
Was merely for you to look at me as a friend
And to be considerate in the sense
That you will not condemn me in your dignified and seif-justified anger
That you care of my feelings,always.

I can only say that I am very disappointed in you.

Readers, please do not question the person this blog is directed to.
He or she might be someone from my school,tuition,family or even just mere acquaitance.
Thank you.

今天毕业典礼后，我家老妈和老爸对我的评价是：
“你走路真不够自信，扭扭捏捏的，不够大方.”

呃...老妈啊，你当我是您么?我才17啊~
唉，看来我要达到老妈子那等程度...还有好一段距离啊。

The solitude and peace

I always find in the safety of my bedroom

Reading my favourite book

Hugging my pillow in my arms

The pacifying feel of secureness and warmth

I appreaciate the music of rain

As I watch them fall drop by drop from the sky

Savouring the feeling of rain dripping of my face and hands

The beauty of them

So real and yet so ethereal

I love to watch my friends laugh

And love it ever more to laugh along with them

It always make me feel tender in my heart

Knowing that there is somewhere I belong

Those are beautiful days

I envy the wind

And I would like to be one too

Able to do what I like,what I want

Unpredictable Ungraspable Unstopable

I would feel so free

Nomatter the sadness I walked through

Nor the bitterness I still feel

I know they always seem little

In the face of everything

However

It is something I hold almost dear

Because they are what made me who I am

I believe in angels

Because my family are one too

I believe in God

And that doesnt need reason

Nomatter how cynical I am

I still love homo sapiens

Because I've seen kind people

And because I am one too

I'm growing up
And reality kicks in as hard as ever.