The friend I am

This is what I would do for my friend:

When you smile
I hope it's coz you feel like smiling
When you cry
Heck, nomatter if you're male or female
I wouldn't comfort you first-handedly
I would juz be a quiet shadow,watching you
And that's coz, judging a human's pride
Noone wanna let others see them cry
When you're angry
Hell, I freaking damn hope it's not my cause
Bytheway, when you're the fire
I would try to be the cooling water

I would be there for you
To listen when you called
(that's what phones are for btw)
I would want to be the one
That you know you have at your back
And that you would know that
Whatever happens
I would never be the one to betray you
I would also try my best to protect you

BUt do know that
When I think you're making a mistake
I would try my best to pull you back
When I think you're drowning
I would try to be your float

There's one more thing that I think you should be informed
That is, when I decided that you're no longer a friend
I would walk out that door
And leave without a trace

Childhood

Roads would all lead back to one's childhood
If you ask of how one's personality develop
Into the present state of what you see.

Mine is likewise.

My childhood had never been a bright one
Although it's not rain and storm
But it's a dull, isolated world I've lived in.

When I was young
My world only revolves around books and study
I've a very strict mother
Who place much importance in academic excellency.
I wouldn't complain about it, considering how well I'm doing right now.

However.
I've always been a social outcast.
I was way outdated about what is cool, and what is not.
I wasn't any good in interacting with people
And I wasn't exactly the cute and adorable kid.

I could always describe of how painful it feels
When you watch others play merrily
And you could only sit back and watch
What I did was pick up a book
Start reading like the whole damned world out there
Is nothing but shit for me

That was how the first stage of my behaviour developed
I turned into a quiet, introvert girl
Loneliness was nothing to me then.
Walking down the path solitarily
Is not so bad after all.

But people think differently.
How they turned quietness into cockiness
Will always be a mystery to me
When they said they think I was cold
Mayhaps they were right
But mostly, I'm cold coz I dunno what to say

It was like looking out of a window
Where things were colourful and full of life
Such a contrast to the world you live in
Where things were only white and black

哭泣,能是茫然的么
宛如伸出一双求助的双手
等待着另一个人的怜惜

坚强,会是一种痛苦么
那么瘦弱的背影
为了守护自己的一切
而笔直地站稳了双足

笑容,何不是苦涩的见证
被泪水洗亮的双眸
犹如安静的悲吟般
怔然地望向前

因为一个人走得艰辛
因为一个人走得孤单
所以想要依赖的对象
所以想要有人伴着

不想倒下
即使流过鲜血流过苦泪
也想继续往前走

且希望寒冷的雨夜中
有人伴在身侧依靠着
只是在累得撑不下去了
也知道自己不是一个人
仰望着凄美的月亮时
有人紧握着自己的手
破碎的心,更待那个人
前来把碎片一个个拾起

我只想要个真心爱我的人陪着我
一生一世,不离不弃

Behind the Mask

Ever wonder,
what is the truth
under the beautiful mask
I hold tightly to my face

Ever think,
that one day
you might discover the mendacious female
you've been happily holding hands with
for such a long time

I might be an unworthly human
With an icy,stone-cold heart
Or I might be someone
Whose calculative thoughts hidden behind
A kind, harmless smile

I would be as enigmatic as the night
Where nothing is predictacble
Or I would be as angelic
As how a devil in disguise would be
And sly enough to fool everyone including me

If you're afraid
Do not attempt to remove my mask
If you're daring
Ask for my hand
To dance a waltz together
By the end of a waltz's time
What is it, that you will find?