长女

我是长女

不管是爸爸或妈妈的那一方

都是最年长的

因为我爸妈都是长子长女

这其实是我心底的一道伤

就因为我是长女

要背负的永远都更多更重

我家二老膝下有一女二子

而这两位二子却是....靠不住，让他们担碎了心

有时真觉得疲惫，觉得肩膀好似快被重担压垮，快喘不过气

事事都得做得完美，容不得半点瑕疵

我没办法似其它同年女孩般活得那么舒心

看起来虽风光，可我心里的苦何人看见？

我心里究竟有多么的不安谁能得知？

而我父母也永远说不出我最想听的那句话

我的不安就那般时时地存在着

我其实很想说：

“我没你们认为的那等能耐，

没你们所想的那般出色有才华

并不很坚强，也会觉得委屈，

很想有人体谅，不是只有我体谅别人的时候而已

我其实是很想哭，但哭不出来而已”

“我也常常为未来担碎了心”

Past mistakes

Funny how I could say a thousand wise things

And yet forget my much treasured principles and rules in life.

Infuriating how it is that no matter how many disappointments I've been through

I still wanna hope,expect and believe enough in homo sapiens to get past mistakes done again.

Why?

Why is it I still wanna seek for what it had always fed me discouragement and depression?

Why is it I'll still do it even when I know and knew so clearly in my heart,

what kind of person everyone I know are?

Amusingly, that's because I'm a human myself.

第一次失去 心爱的人

您怎么那么忍心离去呢

泪水几乎流了一整夜

我，几乎从有记忆以来，就有了您

都在身边，都在那儿

可笑的我，原来竟是不了解死亡的真正意义

那是永远再也见不了面，说了千万句话都得不了回应

只能靠着记忆与照片的惦记与牵挂

亲目见您躺在棺材里，很可怕

仿佛心口被人拿了锤子狠狠打了下去

意识到了我今生今世已失去您了

意识到了我其实是很爱很爱您的

我希望，我们两家的缘分不会终此于今世

若有下一世，我还是想要当您的侄女

QUIT WHINING

Quit whining!

There are things which happened due to your very own makings
Which you unintentionally brought upon yourself
In ways you just can't apprehend.

It's okay
That you have strong aversion
To the cobwebs you trapped yourself in

It's okay
To have negative feelings
To have such virulence
Towards whatever it is you find so offensive

But that's only for the begining

After you think you finally had enough time
Mopping around
Feeling sorry for yourself

After you figured you seriously had enough of those shit
That you wanna climb out of the box
You're so sick being in

DO SOMETHING

TAKE ACTION

MAKE A CHANGE

Dude ( or gal ), quit juz howling to the moon
Singing how pitifully negative you are
Complaining about this and that
(you wouldnt even know that you're complaining,which is even worse)

People like you are AGGRAVATING
Your incessantly cries
Are downright offensive to my ears
(And I can't pretend not to know coz you happen to be one of my friends)

And I really can't be bothered
Coz you and I won't be meeting anymore

Just to tell you:
Keep on whining and do nothing
You'll gain as much as the corpse in the grave yard
Shut your yap and take actions
You might gain infinitely more than what you expected

You think you're lethargic with what you're dealing right now?
Find the INITIATIVE to change the goddamn situation!

You do nothing, you gain nothing
How old are you that you can't even understand such simple rules of life?
No matter how capable you think you are
May you stay this way
I care naught if everyone I know says you're a hundred years old

To me, you're just a brat.

答复

不是说不喜欢你
只不过不是那种喜欢

起初认识的时候
我承认
是有些动心
可惜，那时候你喜欢着另一个人
所以我便断了那感觉

后来成了好友
也以为因为太要好了
你不可能会喜欢我
也把你当哥儿们看待

没想到还是发生了

不管如何，我还是要谢谢你
谢谢你喜欢上了我

无聊话题==

今晚出去吃晚餐的时候
无聊地看了看那儿得电视
然后就整个晚餐都盯着电视了

呵呵，是个韩国古代片
不过不明白为啥会有洋鬼出现在片中（汗颜。。。）

哇~好一个孤傲，气质出众的帅哥啊~（不是洋鬼）
一身白袍就帅到翻了(虽然样貌平平）
眼神够严厉，态度够冷
浑身就是帅气

我被雷翻了

洋鬼呢，就是典型的美少年
第一眼我还误会他是个女的（o.o）
真是够漂亮的

哈哈~不过我还是喜欢那个严厉酷哥
看他谈恋爱的感觉够赞！

先别想太多，给我专心考过spm。
考完后，我们再好好谈一谈。
我会给你一个答复。